Neurotransmittors.

School was dry.

Need to re-read Fpsych lecture notes =x Argh. More updates later.

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These two are the ultimate super duper wooper dopest classmates man. AND I MADE SOK YEE HIGH! Accomplishment man. Wooooo. And DUH, I’m in the dopest class ever! 1A02! 1A02 has their own Ninja Chipmunk- Who’s actly Joseph (or JOJO) and our cute cat, GABBY! Everyone in 1A02 is awesome. Hee. More updates err, again? I fell asleep when i was supposed to read my notes =x

Addiction.

Intro:
1,2,3,4
Hey, Hey
Forever [2x]

Verse 1:
It’s you and me
Moving at the speed of light into eternity, Yeah.
Tonight, is the night
To join me in the middle of ecstacy.
Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you, around you.

Ima take you there.
Ima take you there.
So don’t be scared, I’m right here baby.
We can go anywhere, go anywhere.
But first, it’s your chance.
Take my hand, come with me.

Chorus:
It’s like I waited my whole life,
for this one night.
It’s gon’ be me, you and the dance floor.
‘Cause we only got one night.
Double your pleasure,
Double your fun.
And dance forever, ever, ever.
Forever, ever, ever.
Forever, ever, ever.
Forever.
Ever, ever, ever.
Forever, ever, ever.
Forever, ever, ever.
Forever on the dance floor.

Verse 2:
Feels like we’re on another level.
Feels like our love’s intertwine.
We can be two rebels.
Breakin’ the rules,
Me and you,
You and I.
All you gotta do is watch me,
Look what I can do with my feet.
Baby, feel the beat inside.
I’m drivin’ you could take the front seat.
Just need you to trust me.
Girl, girl, girl.

[Chorus]

Verse 3:
It’s a long way down.
We’re so high off the ground.
Sendin’ for an angel to bring me your heart.
Girl, where did you come from.
Got me so undone.
Gazin’ your eyes,
Got me saying
What a beautiful lady.
No if’s and’s and maybe’s.
I’m releasin’ my heart and it’s feelin’ amazing.
There’s no one else that matters.
You love me.
And I won’t let you fall, girl.
Let you fall girl.
Oooh.
Oooh.
Oooh.
Yeah, yeah.
I won’t let you fall.
Let you fall.
Let you fall.
Oh.
Oooh.
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, yeah.
It’s like

[Chorus]

Ooh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Ooooh.
Yeah.
Forever, ever, ever, ever.

Forever, ever, ever, ever [fades]

Lies.

School was LOOONG and rather dreadful. I had fun during pbspeaking cos we had to mime the process of writing a speech. my group was given the scenario of an award ceremony. it was hilarious! Rachel being the crazy fan of the award winner; running around like some mad person (it’s normal for Rachel to do that) Straight after pbspeaking tutorial was psych. I was half asleep by then, I’m sorry. Learnt more about schizophrenia and some weird stuff that i didnt know. Haha. did experiments blahblah. And then it rained. It rained cats dogs lizards cockroaches- everything lah. it was so heavy. being me, i was hungry. Like SUPERLY, CRAZILY hungry. All the canteens were full. ITAS was gonna be cold. So Sok Yee, rachel and i made a trip to cheers where we had our lunch- Polar puffs. I swear I’ll lose weight if i dont get enough food in my tummy every lunch break.

Read through the pbspeaking textbook while waiting for APEL to start. Rushed back to engine school for class with Mr Ang. It was fun. He dragged the time a little. zzzz. proceeded to tamp mall to meet Zam. Omg i miss him man. Lol. With that, I waited for an hour. cos initially he told me that it takes him 20 mins to get back to tampines from RP… *rolls eyes* we didnt do anything, really. we aimlessly walked around while catching up with one another. Zam has flabby arms. And I keep poking it cos its so soft. HAHAHAHAHA. ZAM MUST EXERCISE ALREADY. And he joined RP’s cheer! HAHAHAHA! omg i will so watch u one day ok *winks* haha. So yah. He was bored, so he offered to walk me home. Half way walking he said “Ok i’m not walking to yr house frm tamp mall ever again” And who’s idea was it? Haha.

So back to the main reason why I felt like blogging tonight.

I already look like a fool. I already look not worthy. And thanks, cos now i feel worse. If I was daring enough I’d wear a paperbag over my head to school tomorrow. The kind of insensitivity that i cannot stand are those that make no sense. You’re being insensitive not cos of your wit, but of the cold, harsh fact that you are insensitive. After 2 years I met you again and i thought it’d be cool having you as a close buddy. But even my best friend of four years, afiq, has never hurt me as much as you have. And we’ve only been close for like what? 2-3 weeks? As heartless as Zam is at times, he knows when to stop, he has his limits. And when he feels like he’s gone too far, he’ll apologise. To date, you’ve hurt my feelings more than three times. Although to you it might seem like peanuts; means nthing, but to me, i felt the pinch, i felt the embarrassment. I told Rachel that I’ll tell you this the next time you upset me. And surprise- You did. As much as i know you’re trying to make me feel happy, it’s not the way to do so. I’d rather you tell me cheesy, cornyass shit like “Just be patient..” rather than try so hard to make me happy when all you end up doing is pissing me off. I’m not overreacting. I really am pissed at you. Right now, I’m pissed. But when i wake up tomorrow, I wont feel angry anymore. Instead, I’ll feel disappointed.

No doubt it is your personality to be blunt and insensitive towards other people and what they think. But in life, you have to have limits. I can be blunt if i want to be. I can be mean if i want to be. But i only be mean and blunt when the situation calls for it. You’re mean and blunt 24/7 and I’ve never met a person like you. Special? maybe. Egoccentric? maybe. Whichever, and however you are, i dont know, and maybe i’ll never know. but all i know is i dont like having a friend who is not sensitive of my feelings. My best friend can tell me to stop pursuing feelings for a guy without making me feel a tad bit angry at him. My best friend can tell me i look funny in a dress without making me feel insulted. My best friend is able to hook me up with a dude without making me look like a complete fool in my own skin.

There’s a problem. You are not my best friend. I dont even know if i consider you my friend. cos as heartless as some (or many) of my guy friends are, they know how to take care of my feelings. as vulgar and horny my guy friends are, they know when to stop; they know when it’s funny and i’m laughing and when it’s not funny anymore.  THEN AGAIN, You are not my other guy friends. You are who you are. I dont expect you to change. I’m sorry, but i cant be super close friends with someone who cannot understand and take care of how i feel. As friends, we need to have mutual respect for each other; of which i think we dont have.

There’s no point in being nice and funny and fun to hang out with if you cant even respect the opposite party’s feelings man.

Disappointed. Just disappointed.

Forever.

I’ve added a new addition to my named items. I got Lexon yesterday (My purple iPod). Nyahahahahha. My bus rides are no longer boring and finally the ugly sounds are blocked by music from Lexon. Woo.

School was okay today. I had instant noodles for lunch? Lol. Yes, i was THAT lazy. Loool. While waiting for the water in cheers to boil, guess who walked into cheers? JAIRUS ANG! Omg he was so nice to have noticed me first and gave me a huge hug. Awwww. Hahaha. So i got mixed reactions towards what i wore today. Some made me feel like i was wearing Ronald MacDonald’s costume. Some said I look like a minah (wtf?!), some said i looked cute, some thought i was inspired by minnie mouse, while some said i looked like a barista in starbucks wearing the wrong coloured apron. LOL.

zzzz. FPsych was madness. I totally gave a wtf face when Ms Tan started talking about the neurons in our brains and shit. But i got hang of it eventually. CSA was WORSE! I was copying blindly. not that i was happy about it, but it really didnt make sense to me. HELLO? SOFTWARE? really. -.-Dragged Hakim to accompany to get dad’s cooking book at borders @ parkway. Got dad’s book and this monster wanted to eat -.- watched him eat while i tried to decipher my lecture notes =\ went home taking 15, and switched to 21. Mundane day. Meeting zam tmr! I miss him ok. rawr.

Ok. more boring posts to come.

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PEOPLE (v.2)

What is up man. WHAT THE HELL IS UP.

As i’m writing this pointless post. I feel like crying and just lying down and cry myself to sleep. Cos it seems that everything around me is hurting my feelings. Is it my period? Is it my moodswings? I have no freaking idea but in any case, I’m having crazy ass cramps on my arms and on my tummy and it’s really not funny cos it’s a chore for me to wear my clothes and carry simple things like my bag and shit. I cant sneeze, cough and laugh cos it’ll trigger the muscles in my tummy and cause it to tense up. and when it does i can just drop to the floor and not move.

So you tell me. TELL ME NOW. Is it a right time to piss me off.

PEOPLE.

I didnt have school today (happy face). So i met Marissa to go get our shoes over at queensway. HAPPINESS! Then met jaws at orchard where we went to BK to eat. Ok. this part. got story.

Jos: Hi can i have one chicken burger. take away the lettuce for me please
Girl @ counter: err ok (blur face)
Girl @ counter: – turns to friend and asks in malay- eh lettuce can take away ah?
Marissa: nono, she wants the chicken burger but take away the lettuce
G@C: Oh oh ok
Jos: -waits-
- G@C comes out with a box which is filled with the lettuce (wtf)-
Jos: Eh eh no no. I’m eating here, not take away
G@C: just now you say take away what…
Jos: NO. I SAID I WANT A CHICKEN BURGER, TAKE AWAY THE LETTUCE FROM IT
G@C’s friend:  -whips out jos’s burger- minus the lettuce rite?
Jos: YES.
G@C: Just now you said take away the lettuce what. next time say minus lettuce lah
Jos: YES, I SAID TAKE AWAY THE LETTUCE, BUT I WANTED THE CHICKEN BURGER WHAT. Aiyah. sorry la thanks anw.

I was behind jos by the time the whole lettuce in box thing happened. Got back to our table and i was like WTFF. seriously ah. WHO THE HELL COMES TO BK AND ORDERS JUST THE LETTUCE? Ok fine, jos shdve said “dont want the letttuce” but i mean, IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, it wldnt make sense if someone just wanted the lettuce rite? might as well go ntuc and get lettuce! or get a salad. GOD. and the girl at the counter made a mistake and still wanna argue! wtf. come on la. REALLY. REALLLLLLYYY? You couldve made yrself sound about 5 cm smarter if u clarified with my friend what she wanted. *irritated face*

So anyway, today was fun and funny. So i was happy. the weather was very. err. HUMID. but anyway, i had fun. Got home and read the new paper. Apparently some dude created a “SINGAPORE SUCKS” group in facebook. I wonder what he wants to get out of it man. And i read about some australian peeps who commented and said their piece on how much they hate singapore, and how rude singaporeans are, how they dont allow space to enter the mrt, how ‘weird’ our accents are, how bad our english is…. and the list goes on. some of them people who bash up the name of singapore are singaporeans to begin with. L-O FUGGIN L.

Dude, you’re criticsising YOURSELF man. Trying to sound like some sort of pro in english. Look in your IC/Birth cert. What is your NATIONALITY? If you wanted to criticise, the least you can do is not be stupid and criticise YOURSELF. which bugger is SMART enough to call insult himself. If you criticise Singaporeans as a whole, YOU’RE PART OF THEM. I guess you just wanted to reinforce the fact that you dont think through what comes out from your mouth or whichever part of your body. And the foreigners who keep complaining. GOSH. I’ve met foreigners when i’m out of singapore and i engage in small talk with them. I tell them where i’m from (proudly), and the typical thing they’ll say is “Woah! I’ve been there! it’s awesome!” or “WOAH! I’m planning to go there some day” Maybe they’re lying, i dont know. but that’s the kind of thing i get from foreigners. The thing is, I know singapore is not perfect. I know singapore has singlish. I know singaporeans can be inconsiderate and rude. And singaporeans are definitely kiasu. However it may seem, it does not give anyone the right to stereotype that ALL singaporeans are like that. there are some singaporeans who are nice, and friendly. U just havent met them yet. Maybe cos your puny brains are clouded with the stereotype that ALL singaporeans are like that. Yes, I’M PRO SINGAPORE. I LOVE SINGAPORE. I LOVE MY COUNTRY. as imperfect as it is, people still come here to work, and study and do their surgeries. people come here to see the different and interesting festivals that we have because we are a multi racial society. Maybe it’s our culture to be obnoxious and rude. although i have to admit, it’s not a nice way to welcome people, but WE ARE SINGAPOREANS. Like fingerprints, we’re different from the other countries. i bet you, there are no perfect countries with perfect people. i’m sure different countries have their good and their bad points.

Culture doesnt define people, or a person. 10% of culture you can see (visible). the other 90% you cant see (invisible). to understand culture, it’s the 90% that’s more important. With this, i proudly say that I’m glad I took up TransNational Studies. Because i learnt that everyone is different. So for these people who diss singaporeans and stereotype them, I strongly encourage you to take up this course (if you can) because its with this that you will understand other cultures, other people, other traditions.

I love what this dude said in the new paper.

“I dont understand why some people like to whine at every little bad thing in life rather than doing something constructive about it”

 Complain complain complain. But no action.

At least we still have SINGA the courteous Lion. And Kindness Week. And speak good english campaign. We’re trying.

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Just wanna give a shout out to my best friend, Afiq.

Dude, I dont know whats going on with you man. But I hope you’re okay. Please dont give up on your studies. Dont give up now. You’ve come so far. Just push on. I’m sure you can do it. You did it once before- emerging as one of the top students in sec three. Dont sell yourself short, mate. I know I havent been there for you for quite abit, but i worry for you. I feel bad that I havent been around to give you that boost. But in any case, I’ve never stopped believing in you and i never will stop. If it takes me to see you after my lectures/tutorials just to make sure you’re ok and you’re coping well with yr studies, I WOULD. If it takes me to eat ice cream with you every day to make you feel better and give you support, I WOULD. You know I’ll understand you. And I know i might not be able to help you with the guy issues, but I sure as hell can try to hear you out and make you feel better.

Dont give up on youself, bro. Please dont. I see so much potential in you. For you to repeat sec three and do well at the end of the year. I have a whole lot of respect for you, mate. you worked so hard, and gained THAT spot. Dont waste it all away. I dont want to see you performing less to your abilities. you are not ITE potential, i know that. you’re worth more than that. Although i cant be there all the time but just remember that I’ll be that super hyper girl who’s cheering you on with purple pom poms screaming “GO AFIQ!!!! WOOO!!!” I’ll be there, mate. I’ll be there. I promise.

xoxo,
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2nd Day Nonsense

Taking a break from doing Bus Stats. Needed to clarify something with someone from 1A02. Hee. Clarified~ before i get back to work, today was tiring. Cos i slept late the night before thanks to a long call with Hakim. And he claims it’s my fault. He could have just told me to shut up and rest. I wouldve understood. Grr. Went to school with Hamzah! He taught me a trick on how to avoid bus crowds and get a seat; though it takes 10 mins later. Rachel was all “I AM GOING TO SLAP YOU! YOU TOLD ME TO MEET AT 8:30!” Then we got lost. We couldnt find where the hell was block 17 over in the engine block. NOW WE KNOW. Pbspeaking was fun. after that was supposed to be Foundation Psych tutorial but it was cancelled. Our next lesson was at three… Which meant that…… We had freaking 4 hrs of break. Ate at ITAS and fell asleep at the library later. HAHA! At 2 i met Hakim to go and pray, got myself chocs to stay alive for the next 3 hrs and went for class. APEL was fun cos it was damn slack. Played games and shit. it was awesome. APEL was at engine block. Then i realised that our next class was at IT. Uglily breeze walked to IT school and still managed to reach on time. Woohoo. Academic writing was the best. cos we were in the lab and basically, the whole module was an ONLINE thing. which was dope, yo.

So we had to put 3 interesting things about ourselves on the discussion board. I put the fact that I was born with shit in my mouth, and I was born bow legged AND the fact that I’m racially indonesian. Rachel Tay Kai Rei (Dammit i love her chinese name) put the fact that she almost drowned to death when she was six. So what we had to do was that we had to comment and ask a question from whatever all of us had to say. in other words, reply to their introductions. So i asked Rachel “What did you do that made you almost drown”

She was shy to admit it at first. But when she finally replied me, I laughed like woah.

“I was swimming. I went to the deep end of the pool. I fell out of my float”

LIKE. WTF. Sok Yee asked me why and i told her, SHE LAUGHED TOO! i wasnt the only one.

And if you all must know. I threatened Rachel. It was the worst threat EVER.

I will hang pieces of seaweed and vegetables on her rubberbands in her mouth on her braces should she ever piss me off isnt that wonderful. NYAHAHAHA. I still love you though. *supercute face*

OK i better get back to work. Or else, I’ll never finish my hmwrk. Peace

First Day Jitters

I woke up at 9- as usual. Supposedly the only class i got started at 4 today. But i checked my phone and, SURPRISE!- Business Statistics lecture at 11.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rushed breakfast and shower only to receive another text saying

“Pbspeaking lecture on NOW!”

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I started cursing and swearing. Called Rachel and cursed together with her. LOL. Then Keith called. Mr Francis told me to calm down and said that the 10 am lecture isnt important. It was just the handing out of the REAL time table. At this point in time i felt like killing something. So yah. Whatever. Rushed to tamp interchange to purchase consession.

Cheesepie. The queue at the ticket counter at the bus interchange was long. I was cursing in my head. Rushed over to the mrt station ticket counter. CHEESEPIE. KNN. Bloody ass long queue. Went back to the bus interchange ticket counter. Wasnt so long. queued up. thank you lady for doing yr job efficiently and fast. Then when it came to my turn, i realised that the Muddy Fishballs (Motherfuckers. I’m trying to cut down on my vulgarities. HAH) queued up not to change their ezlink card, or get a concession. THEY WERE QUEUEING UP TO TOP UP THEIR FREAKING EZLINK CARDS LA. easflweabfiwahrewa;iherfaw;indsbhefawihefnoaew;. cheesepie. GOT NO ATM CARD AH? Or walk the lazy ass to the mrt station and use the 10-12 add value machines there??? dont waste my time, and dont waste space to queue. I’m in a state of emergency and u take up space to queue up at the ONLY place i can top up my concession. WTH. Angry.

Grr. So i took 69. By then i was really pissed (thanks to the drama that morning) that i told Rachel if the bus didnt come, i’ll massacre everyone in the bus and be the country’s number 1 mass murderer. ANGRY. rawr. But on the side. class was okay. I hyperventilated a little when i found out i was doing stats again. I’m not calculus genius. I’m not even good at it. depressing. paid attention in class anyway, and went for lunch after. Bought 2 books which cost me 54 bucks. and tmr i’m supposed to get 2 more which costs 43 bucks for both. Rachel brought Garrett to school today. Garrett is her new Mac Laptop. I swear she said Garrett more than 20 times today. With that, she named my laptop Sheldon. Sexy, i know. Well, it beats the name of my BROKEN waterbottle, Kinku. Kinku is broken. Thanks to Hakim. (sad face) Daniel’s laptop is named Josephine, WeiWei’s laptop is named Bob, and Sok Yee’s is Zachary. We were THAT bored while waiting for our Comp application lecture to start. I’m in the same lecture with Dhab and Wahidah in comp application. LOL! random shit.

I got loony in comp application lecture. I wasnt even paying attention. WOOOPSIE. haha. I was busy making jokes with Rachel. till she like scolded me la. But anywwaaays. That was school today. met loads of peeps. Pbspeaking tmr.. shd be interesting (smirk)

Tiara loves 1A02.

I’m just a little girl lost in the moment

Went out with Enno to watch Fast & Furious 4. It was DOPE. And she couldnt stop laughing at my voice -.- after that i met the cullens for lunch. I was starving by then and i grew weak. haha! typical of tiara. so yah. ate at BK. I swear BK has the best burgers ok.

So we went to one fullerton next to rhel and diq’s workplace. had some drinks and slacked. sadly, the dude who was the manager that day wasnt the nice one so they couldnt give us discounts =( but anyway, i enjoyed catching up with my mates. It really made my day =) went to aljunied and sweated like crazy while walking there. Aryssa is getting cuter by the minute and she wont cry when we carry her anymore. And finally Eka is in the TP spirit. HAHA! we did the TP handsign song. And the rest laughed -.- but Aniqa thought it was interesting and kept watching. lol. i really wanted to watch the sixth sense, but i got bored half way and showered. nyahahha

Class in the morning tmr. Then I’ve got to follow mum n dad to a wedding reception in the afternoon at malay village. zzzz. School starts on monday and i have no idea what time it starts cos i’m confused. i dont know if i shd follow the time table or the pieces of paper that they gave us which has very unclear instructions about classes. so now i really have no idea what time to head to school. depressing. but nevermind. haaaa. till next time

HSS HSS ALL THE WAY!

HSS lost. But I had fun anyway! The emcees kept coming to us cos they were amazed at how loud we could be even though we were the smallest school The cheerleading thing was fun too! although i didnt manage to get the shoulder sit right, i still made it anyway. Eh come on la. it was cheerleading 101 in half an hour -.-

I love 1A01! I’m with Rachel Tay and Keith Yau. Omg. Lectures are not gonna be boring with Rachel around! My stick =p I mean, my SEPTOR. ahhahahahha. Rachel came up with this word: HIRED. High + Tired. I laughed in the LT. I already miss Grace’s TEE-A-RAAAAAAA~ and and Rachel calls me TEE-EH-RA. Lol. Omg so sexy. Haha!

Classes start on monday. Already printed out my time table. Lecture at 10am. I’m excited and nervous all at the same time. Excited cos I’m gonna study something I have passion for. And nervous cos I’m afraid I cant do it =\ the day ended with one of the GEM girls dislocating her knee =x she screamed like mad ar. Grace, Rachel and I started to cry. But she’s fine now, thank Goodness. The day ended with Jam n Hop. Didnt have as much fun though. It wasnt the best jam n hop I’ve been to. And as i was queueing up to go inside the sports hall, there were these dudes in front of me who used their friend’s matric card to get in. but they couldnt cos the cards didnt belong to them.

I guess I had fun. Congrats to business for winning! YAYEEE! congrats to AS for winning the cheer competition! and congrats to Design for winning best spirited! and congrats to all the dragonboaters who won. lastly, congrats to TP for having fun!!! TP OIIEEEEE!

TP is indeed the best poly in singapore.
=)