I… Still love purple.

Yes. My toe is still purple. And the best thing is, i cant even feel anything now -.- I DONT EVEN KNOW IF MY TOE IS STILL ALIVE! T_T depressing. so anyway, the larry robot is my group’s creation during POC tutorial last monday (i think) teehee. and then the rocketing session yesterday. heh. i borrowed Amar’s cap. And many said i should wear caps since i look good in them. NYAHAHA! dont worry, i’ll wear my cap.. one day.. *evil face* so anyway, i’m still in my PJs. I havent showered. TEEHEE. and i feel so touched that many of my friends were so concerned about my toe. lol. Awww. so sssweeeetttt. nyehehe.

and i still dont wanna turn into a dinosaur! T_T i feel so sad now. Okay I better shower cos i’m going out reaaaal soon. Bye all ^_^v more pics tonight. rawr

I love purple. xoxo

POC workshop was supposed to be Music Making. But the Music dude was sick =( so we did Rocketing with Mr Jeff! I got wet. It was a whole lot of fun though. Luckily I wore black pants so it wasnt so obvious. Actually that’s not the highlight of the day.

THIS is the highlight of the day…

(my photography skills getting better. NYAHAHA~)

but on the side note..
MY TOE IS SWOLLEN! T_T so depressing. I was getting ready for school this morning and my foot accidentally hit my dressing table. It happened to me once or twice before, but usually the pain will subside.. and it wont turn purple! I was so shocked when I couldnt wiggle my toe. It felt kinda numb. That’s when I realised that it was swollen. I rubbed some ointment and i went to school with sneakers. It got worse in school and I started limping. It was madness, i tell u. I went home and took off my socks. TO MY HORROR, IT TURNED PURPLE. I was like O.O !!!!!!!! so i put some ice on it, and it went numb. After that i used the laptop. Battery was getting low, so i wanted to plug in the AC cable. As i was meddling with it, trying to put it into the socket, the heavy part of the AC cable just dropped on my foot with the purple toe!!! like, OUCH. Haiz. chatted with some people online and signed off to slack while waiting fr azryl’s call. We agreed to go visit the band.

The band sounds awesome. but as always, there’s always room for improvement. When I was hearing them play ther set piece and choice peace, I was proud. I was proud to have been part of such a family. I was proud that my juniors are doing such a tremendous job. Despite scoldings from Mr Ng, demoralising remarks, they still fight on. I love their spirit of never giving up and reaching for the stars. I hope that their hard work (and Mr Ng’s, Miss Tan’s and Miss Ong’s) will pay off and that they will feel as satisfied as how i felt (and the other seniors who were involved in the last SYF) when ESMB brought home their first medal.

I wore slippers to visit the band, and my toe looked so disgusting =( I was hoping and praying that nobody steps on my foot, or drops something on it. Thankfully, none of that happened. Rhel and I got the band t shirts that we’re supposed to pay to shikin soon. Lol. After that we said our goodbyes to the juniors and left. I got my oreo chocolate bubble tea and… APPLE PIE! Gosh. I think apple pie is my new drug. Rawr. Speaking of Rawr. Nugget said that I may turn from a terter to a dinosaur cos my toe has grown almost 1/2 times of its size =( I DONT WANNA BE A DINOSAUR T_T Anyways, Enno said that she and kak nadia bought a dress online which cant fit them, and they’re gonna give it to me! *superhugebigsmile* Alhamdulillah- another piece of wardrobe to consider wearing to school ^_^v thanks Enno & Kak Nadia! Speaking of them, it’s been a long time since i saw them. Let alone have ice cream outings with Enno. We havent been running too. Well maybe they did.. Without me. Hahhaa. But anyway, since my toe is purple and swollen, i dont think i can run for the next few days.

I have homework to do. I better get started cos my saturday and Sunday are booked. Hehehehe. Currently alone at home. Mum & Dad still at work. Embak is over at nenek’s place. Kinda peaceful actually. I have the whole house to myself. *serene face*

xoxo

I touched and I was burned

Yesterday was erm. Weird? Cos I felt so much anger for a brief moment, and then suddenly I got all stony. What better way than to talk to my best friend, Afiq. And by the way, he changed his name again. It’s not Abang Joy now. It’s Abang Bala. He gave me the inspiration for my homework. Haha!

So okay. Today’s post is supposed to be rather stern and serious.

Although Afiq and I joke alot in our conversations, he still makes me feel a whole lot better. Dont know how he does it, but yeah. It made me a whole lot better. I tried putting advise into action today, and whenever i thought about it, i’d feel just fine (: For the past 3 weeks, I’ve been living on a song; in dire, desperate need to feel empowered. Everyday I’d listen to it- before i go to school, on the way to school, on the way home from school, while doing homework, getting read for school.. Any time i can squeeze in for the 3 minute song, I would. It’ll make me feel better for a while, but shit happens and I’d just find myself back in square one. It’s normal, I guess. It just takes time. And the cycle repeats.

So this was a part of the conversation I had with Fiqqy yesterday.

“And when you remember, convince yourself that most of the time we tend to miss the memories and not the person.”

Makes sense, yes? To some, maybe not. But for me, definitely. Whenever I just feel really down, I’ll say this in my head, and it gives me the attitude to say “Shit happens. I’ll be fine.” So yeah. I have a rocking best friend who has volunteered to be my temporary eye candy for the time being. Haha!

Loads of assignments to be done. Alot of assignments to meet. My 2 weekends booked (Nyeheheheehe) So I think I’m gonna get started (like, Finally) today. I already finished one part. 2 more to go! The couch is coming back! I will have to express my undying love for my couch. I miss it so much that I could cry. Although the whole length of my body cant really fit into it anymore (which means my legs will hang out at the end. Lol) I still love napping there. Haiz. Ooooo. And after almost I dont know how many months, I’m finally gonna meet Mimi! (Insya Allah) The last time i met him was like, before National Day lor. So long ready la! sheeshhh. Sunday I’ll be going shopping with the 2 bimbos and Jawslyn. geddit? Jaws.. Jos.. heee. Lastly, I WANT APPLE PIE! rawr. ok i better start on work.

^_^v

zzz. huh? what?

Very tired today. Rawr. Went to school at 9:15 to meet the other psycho peeps cos we were going to the Silver Ribbon Centre. Pretty cool. We understood more about mental illnesses. Good for our research. Then back to school for lunch and CW tutorial. Moving on…..

stayed back for a lil while to discuss about the project. rained heavily. so i didnt walk to the safra bus stop. just took 8 straight to afghan and switched buses. dumdeedum.

If you havent realised I’m damn sleepy and tired. The fact that mummy wants to watch the most lamest and fucked up show EVER, is making me irritated. What show? CINTA FITRI SEASON 2. My god. seriously. they should just stop making cheesy cliche shows like that anymore. boy likes girl. girl hates boy. but ends up liking boy. boy and girl confess. happiness. but shortlived….. and it goes on. then when u think it’s over, some random thing pops up, and becomes a problem. REALLY?! REALLLLLLLYYY??! gosh. people actually waste they’re lives watching these mundane shows. I was guilty of it. till i gave up on it. so yah. pssssheeeshhhhhhh.

honestly, i have no idea why i feel so angry and agitated today. Like just really frustrated. I couldnt start on homework cos like, nothing creative is coming to me. and my creative juices seemed to have dried up. And my train of thought went on a holiday. like. COME ON AR! pffft. Now I’m talking to Abang Joy……. Who’s Abang Joy? (dammit. I HATE THE NAME!)

Afiq. Dont know what is up with that name…. I hate it. soounds damn gay. but whatever makes him happy. lol

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

*whines*

Bringing the laptop to school tmr. XY’s bringing his too. And after POC workshop we’re gonna do hmwrk. honestly, i dont think i’d be able to. I’d end up talking to XY. nyahahahhahahahaha.

(ok i think i’m talking no sense at all cos i’m like kinda sleepy.)

so. ok. err. bye!

rawr.

So. yesterday my modem died. Which meant that i was totally not connected to the internet. It was annoying. VERY ANNOYING.

It started on Sunday night. After meddling with it for awhile ( and i think by luck also ) the modem came alive again. It was still alive when i woke up the next day. But it died again when i reached home. I thought i could fix it, but NO. Called singtel and asked (seek sympathy actually haha) for a technician to come to my house to replace my modem as soon as possible. And the kind soul on the other line told me that the technician could come today. I was relieved. Teehee. So I’m back on the net, baby! Rawr!

today we had POC workshop 1. We did terrarium-ing ^_^v. it’s damn fun, i tell you. I have my own cactus now! it’s YELLOW. I wished they had purple coloured cactuses… but unfortunately not. so after making our mini plant garden, we snapped pics, and we had early lunch. Yes, very happening.. very happy. Cos all of us were hungry. But… we didnt know what to do for the next 1 1/2 hrs… played some mind games like bangbangbang who die? and how many mehmehmeh jump over the wall. and even after 2 hrs plus, some still didnt get it…. it was fun watching them figure the whole thing out and beat themselves up. Nyahahhaa. Evilness.

Rather mundane today. Like any other day. Just more pictures, more activities. Ahhhh, the joy~

Pictures!

What I do in CW tutorials…

My terrarium! ^_^v

I made the turtle out of play dough

I think my smiley face damn cute lor.

Toilet breaks, and love for TP. xoxo

Proud terrarium owners, and TP students

Kiambo & Bimbo

LOVVVEEEEEEEEEEEE <3 <3 <3

Skirt and Vans. rawr. yes i finally wore a decent skirt to school. heeee.

tired. zzzz

I. Will. Kill.

I was on the way home from grandmas place and I happened to bring up the topic on ‘judging before knowing’. A rather boring topic, but I experienced it in a different way this time.

As you all may know, I start school at 9. My break is from 12 to 2- which gives me just enough time to do my prayers. I’m awfully greatful that there’s a place in school to do my prayers. I admit, I dont wear the headscarf. And I do wear 3/4 pants, and tight shirts. However, I dont think it’s fair that people judge me just by how i dress.

There’s this makcik whom i assume works as a cleaner in school (or that area at school). I see her most of the time at the place where the designated area to do prayers is located. Basically, i brought my chinese friends, and Marissa (who’s a Muslim) there to accompany me. I know it sounds weird but I just felt uncomfortable when I’m there and there’re alot of guys doing their prayers. Cos i guess more guys use that area than girls. I feel blessed that my friends, although they have different religious views, bothered and didnt mind to accompany me. So there was this one time where the Makcik aint happy that i brought my non-muslim friends to the area. She said that their shoes were dirty, and that she already cleaned up that place for Muslims to pray. I apologised and i told my friends to meet me back in class.

I respected the fact that she cleaned the place up, and that it made sense, cos we Muslims need to pray at a clean area. The thing I didnt like was that she didnt even look at me when she said what she had to say. It was as if she was already judging me and not even being sincere at advising me not to bring my friends to accompany me. I felt guilty that I ‘dirtied’ the place, but at the same time, i felt angry that i could feel a certain ‘judging’ vybe from her. But nevertheless, I chose not to think so much about it and i let it go.

Funny, cos i thought ‘Makcik’s who wear the headscarf are supposed to be nice people with pure hearts. I guess after this incident, it proves that that ideology is not true. If they are so pure and nice, they wouldnt judge. But they did. Just because I dont wear the headscarf, and I dont really cover up as much, it doesnt mean that I dont do my prayers and respect my own religion. As far as I’m concerned, I go to the prayer area to do my prayers and fulfill the fact that I have to pray 5 times a day. I go there with the heart to do my prayers, and that’s between me and God. They have no right to judge me just by what i wear and how I look. If they think I’m ‘bad’ from the way i dress, what makes them all so much better than I am? I thought people with the purest of hearts shouldnt judge. It’s a sin. Still, why are ‘makcik’s with headscarves going around judging people?

Is it just the basic women (MALAY muslim Women) instinct? Is it in born or something. Whatever it is, I just dont respect these people. You claim that you’re all so good and nice, when you dont even realise how not nice you really are. I’m the bad one for wearing tight clothing? Then why do i see girls my age wearing the headscarf and holding hands with they’re boyfriends? I thought that was not allowed? So really, what is the difference between me- THE ONE WHO WEARS 3/4 PANTS AND TIGHT TSHIRTS and them- THE ONE WHO WEARS THE HEADSCARF; JUDGES, AND DOES THINGS LIKE HOLD HANDS OF THEY’RE BOYFRIENDS. To me, we’re all the same. I’m not saying ALL girls who wear the tudung do these kinda stuff. I applaud those who actually do live up to they’re headscarves. GOOD ON YOU, MATE. and that’s sincere.And I’m not saying ALL malay muslim older women. Just those who tarnish the other’s names.

So, I’m ‘bad’? REALLY? I bet I’m not as bad as some out there. REALLY.

Morning jokes and middle finger moments

Joslyn told me that she liked it when i say “chibai” cos she says I pronounce it nicer O.o LOL

Test yesterday was err, okay? I think I mixed up creativity and innovation on one of the factors of the case study. But oh well. I hope i pass. Nyahaha. After the test we went to eat at the design canteen, and I swear the Nasi Campur is damn nice, and damn worth it. The chicken the makcik gave me was HUGE. With the chicken, i got myself tofu and taugeh. All that for 2.40 bucks. I paid 2.50 at ITAS for asam pedas and kangkong!!! WTFFFF! i feel so cheated. Obviously I underestimated the serving of the rice and the side dishes. And I only finished 3/4 of the rice and 1/2 of the chicken. Sooooooo. I asked larry if he could finish up my food! And he did la! That guy is a food barrel, i tell you. He can eat and eat like NON STOP. Haha. After eating i rushed for the meeting with Mr Francis at the HSS office. Waited for him for awhile, and discussed. then, home sweet home.

Slept in the afternoon, and woke up to wash up cos I was gonna meet Mummy at Tampines to get some bottoms for myself which I would be using to school one day. I wanted to get black berms only… or so i thought… Then i realised that Daddy wanted me to wear skirts more often, so i scouted out for a skirt too. And i found one ^_^v That was IT…. OR SO I THOUGHT…. Until, the dude who was working at esprit kind of influenced me to get a mini skirt. ok PAUSE. If you’re thinking I’m gonna wear the mini skirt just like that, YOU ARE INSANE. When I tried the skirt on, I swear i felt naked. Basically the dude told me to get a mini skirt and wear it with tights- WHICH IS MY PLAN. hee. so i got the mini skirt. and really, i cannot understand how some people can wear mini skirts like that without feeling naked =\ lol. To explain myself, 2 out of the 3 things i bought are sale items. HAHAHA. they had it in my size, they’re not ridiculously priced (because they were on sale), and they were really pretty ^_^v and to top the whole day off, I GOT MYSELF APPLE PIE! heeheeheehee.

I’m a happy girl. Tomorrow, I’ll be going out with Bimbo and Kiambo. More bimbo moments. nyahaha! this shd be funny. *evil face* lol.

and err. i need to bring the lappy to grandmas plc cos i need to do my journals. rawr.

Photographs and crapped up hair -.-

Went to go do my ezlink card with XY! And we got the new ones! heeeee. I just realised how my retarded my hair is in passport photos -.- see ar.

My matric card. The left side of my head has more hair than the right side! Same photo on my IC. hee. And YES, I’m an official TP student, and I’m from the Humanities and Social Sciences School (HSS) NYAHAH.

Here’s the new photograph i took today..

I USED THE MACHINE! nyahhahaha. XY was there to accompany me. It’s easy. I would consider taking a new batch of photographs. LOL. Just for fun. cheyks, like as if i print money like that. OK yah. so. as you can see, the left side of my head has wavy hair, and the right side is straigh. WTF! i was too concerned about my fringe that i didnt take notice the other parts of my hair. Depressing. so retarded lah =.= haiz.

And tada! new ezlink card! I applied for the concession. Weehooo.

So lesson to learn. Girls, if u care too much about yr fringe, you wont realise how retarded the other side of yr hair is. LOL.

I STILL THINK IT’S DAMN RETARDED AR……. one side got curl the other side straight. look as if i got split personality or smth. T_T. DEPRESSSSINNNNNGGG.

Mood swings. Ahh screw it.

funny how one day we’re really angry, and the next we seem like we’re over it and we’re happy, and then poof, we’re back to square one. Is it caused by emotional songs? Or, the company? Or, the whole atmosphere? Maybe it’s the significance of certain things that trigger the emo button?

Recap the last 3 days, shall we? First I was angry, and bitter. And then thanks to Ele i kinda forgot about it for awhile. and suddenly, even when I was with my usual peeps in school, i started to err. Emo. Thoughts invaded my already tired brain- thoughts that were not invited to my brain. One day i’ll have to realise that forcing aint gonna do good. Cos i found myself in deeper thought, and that was not a good sign. Right this second, I’m listening to the Emo songs in my iTunes. (WTF)

Those who know of the current situation I’m in have constantly reminded me to just take a step forward and that I’ll eventually get over it. I really hope it’s soon, cos whatever’s happening now is tearing me apart- piece by piece. I know, “How can such a problem like this make u so stuck?” I’m asking myself the same question. But I’ve been thinking that maybe, asking myself why isnt really a good idea. Cos i know i’ll never be able to get to an answer. So, why bother.

*SIDE TRACK*

Yesterday I was reading an aquaintance’s blog. And boy, was it boring. She was writing about her DAYS. like EVERYDAY. What she did that day, what she said that day, what time she met her friends/ boyfriend that day, what she bought that day, what she ate that day, what she learnt that day, blahblahblah. And her posts werent short, like

Eg:

I went to sch at 7. met my usual peeps. class was ok. had recess. something funny happened. after school i went home with my boyfriend. we walked home. now i’m at home finishing up hmwrk and i’m gonna crash soon.

Her posts for ONE DAY in a SECONDARY SCHOOL, was as long as my post on the school ban thing. I’m serious. I got bored. I read the first few words and i almost fell asleep. zzz. I gave up. REALLY. i just gave up reading her boring blog. Just thinking about it makes me bored. sheesh. More bimbo moments today. But I’d have to make a point that Marissa the Kiambo has officially overruled Alicia the Bimbo. Nyahahahha. Creative writing break was a friggin 30 minutes! Bought myself pocky and chocolate. I swear I can grow fat and unhealthy if this goes on. Dammit. MUST RUN. or Skate. Anyone? Skate with me? Oh right. I kinda lost a companion to skate with. My fault.

I’d have to stop blaming myself for my own misery one day. Yes, and I’ll be waiting for that day to come. haha! And I finally managed to give Jamie some of my brownies. I feel happy once i;ve shared the joy of chocolate and baking to others *serene face* haaa. It’s 11:45 and i’m still not in bed. Why? COS I’VE GOT NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!

Going out with my girls and some of the dudes to watch he’s just not that into you. THIS BETTER BE A GOOD MOVIE. Cos i personally like the book. And it better motivate me like crap ar. or else I’d want a refund of my 6 bucks. cheyks. action i entitled to do that only. Lols. Meeting XY tmr! Go do ezlink card and i need to take passport photo! I’m using the booth. I dont care =) dumdeedum.

This was drawn during Creative Writing class. Lol! Inspired by Afiq! Teehee! omg i miss sec school =(

DEPRESSING. and zam knows why cos i told him why i’m whining 5 mins ago =\

Day Numero Dos.

Joy. Pure utter joy.

In Psychology of Creativity, we were told to get into groups and start a story. Then, we had to pass it to the person beside us to continue the story. Here’s mine. HAHAHAHHA.

“     Once upon a time there as a beautiful princess who lived in a magnificent castle.. or so she thought she was beautiful. In actual fact she was the ugliest, horrendous and obnoxious princess in the history of forever. One day, whe was in the forest behind her home picking flowers for her hair. In a desperate attempt to look pretty, she picked out the smelliest and ugliest flower. Thinking that it was a pretty flowerm she stuck it behind her ear and skipped happily back to her castle. However, on the way home, she met with a swarm of bees that chased her all the way back to the castle’s gate. Unaware of what to do, she screamed and tore her hair apart. She went bald. She decided to become emo from that day on. But after a while, her hair still did not grow. She was depressed. She shunned the day in fear of what others would think of her, and she would only come out at night. She grew nire withdrawn and her eyes sunk in. However, suddenly a priest appeared in front of her and surrounded her with purple aura. He told her that he could cure her if only she gives something precious to him. She thought about it and gave the priest her dignity so that she could regain her beauty. They got married and the priest became King.

Purple: I wrote it.
Orange: Michelle wrote it
Blue: Keith wrote it
Pink: Jonathan wrote it

Apparently Jonathan wrote down purple and pink ‘aura’s on michelle and keith’s scripts too -.- zzz.

So anyway, we made fools of ourselves in Creative writing tutorial again today! Haha! More candid pictures… NYAHAHA.

This part Marissa kanchiong. Told me to whip out the camera to snap the pic.

Marissa feeling like a model. And Alicia… Jealous about it? =P

Hahha! We went to cheers to get chocs during our break!

Joslyn & Marissa

Another Alicia candid….. Her candids damn terok one lor

see at least my candids like once in a lifetime kind…

Nyahhahahahahaha.

More pics soon people.

1) I miss Enno
2) I miss my ROB & QOB
3) I miss Afiq!
4) I miss Zam!

And I need to do my ezlink card.